opinios

it's I verses I, like H and J parted, and i'm the test subject, but my angel left, so i'm left with a pocket full of regret. yet, i still cant sleep, popping pills to forget, losing my self-respect, I neglect to recognize logic, as time is covered with lies.

i despise it so i hide in the basement, contemplate a replacement, but how can i love when i love this self-hatred. never thought i would make it, escape the situation, but i found a way to leave the day's devastation, ease the strain and controlling the pain i found it in a woman, and i pray i'm not living in vein.

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sometimes i reflect on pains in mind, mental imagery attacks me in my sleep. emotions seem beyond me and they're always too deep, it's like i have to siphon between cast away or keep.

carelessly I let go of memories, watch them wash away forgetting what she meant to me, searching for some clarity at the bottom of the cemetery reciting inscriptions R.I.P 'Luke Leslie Brown'. repenting the old ways of yours truly, sinning now, looking around for brighter days with her away, truly are obscene, no bright ideals i just wanna escape the dream.

I hate the way i feel, can i ever forget what i've seen as the nightmares still sting, lie to myself thinking i've moved on but when no-one's around i'm still the only son. lost in self-consciousness, body-bagging my losses as a way to justify my accomplishments, love is an establishment seems i forget what it meant feeling soulless i noticed this, by the echo in my chest, need to be spoon fed the answers as questions grow like cancers, there's always one too many, now too happy to be buried as amongst the dirt i found a cherry, in case you have to ask, yes i'm very happy.

Thank you very much, but i'm still hesitant to hold love in my clutch, for what it may represent I guess it's all too much.

see for some love is hollow, and for others it's borrowed. but for me, I had to let go, but that's the way the current goes, so i get up and get go wading in the shallows. should have learnt to swim for I'm drowning in the undertow (you know?)

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sometimes i reflect on pains in mind, mental imagery attacks me in my sleep. emotions seem beyond me and they're always too deep, it's like i have to siphon between cast away or keep.

i wear a mask to cover the scars of the past, as band-aids wear thin, maybe if i was a groupie i'd get in. but it's hard to stop from sinking within. wouldn't want to commit to any woman, that would be a sin. i guess i'm just too confusing to comprehend, and my logic's bent, it's deluding so ad-hear to lend an hand out of this Intrusion, it's a simple solution you do the math.

growing weary and tired i find love is best expressed in silence, yearn to sleep, but i can see through my eye-lids, so i keep my day-mares and ignore the many stares, slowly letting go of my cares, though each ones replaced with a new fear, time takes its toll and i wonder how long I'll last here.

it's give or take in a world of hate, you make what you make many words spoken too late, it makes me sick, that life with you i have to grip, I started to climb but then i slipped, started to run but then i tripped, started to swing but then i missed, started a hug and then a kiss, never ending this for now i'm second best, mr dismissed, you feeling this?

we're generation X, the information age as life played in stages, we re-write the pages of the ages, read in chapters that capture charachiture that influence our character. so many questions and not enough answers, how many more lessons must we forget, to tally our regrets, that's another subject forgive but never forget, by the way have we met?

sometimes my emotions crack, and i lose track of time, delving too deep in my mind, trying to find solutions to problems that haven't even arised, yet, nevertheless i'm too ignorant to adapt to my environment, so i hide in the dark silence and await the bright white light.