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Patience
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stop waiting to grow old is what they said while they hold the straps tighter on this 4 poster bed all in your head hard to forget, love the questions instead. but in the end half of life is slept all your left with in the end is regret half of your mind's at rest the other's planning your funeral *(final flaws) father times the best teacher but he's murdering his pupils *(with onchores) not a fan of people i'd rather absail from steeples fuck the gargoyles and find life itself more meaningful by living in feebles with preachers and bibles, it's all about survival and a religious revival, pages burn and yes i cry too, aint i beautiful young in my youth at 19, look older from mood swings then life tapped me on the shoulder *(truth knocking) and told me to take him slower just when i thought it was over, i was overhung and sober, told to move over but nails bind my shoulders and this dog can't roll over (chorus) when daylight breaks the night time clouds pierce signs of heaven so the world can keep forgetting commandment number eleven angels kiss the sky tears shed the purest eyes ripple our lives as they collide the stars shine light of life, do we see do we see? So the holy father comprehends you it's cos you work the hardest So your lovers don't understand you that doesn't make you an artist. one thing's established every life has a story i'm still waiting for mine to be published but they keep putting it off telling me *(nah that shit is rubbish)* desire's the spice of life and in your minds indifference from loving acquaintances to hating woman it's simplest form of appreciation when no one listens and fuck you's top of the list in topics of conversation. you're deep and unique, sunk in the norm like everyone else stuck in self doubt up to your knees and soon to be your belt what some may have seen you've soon enough felt so cash your vivid dreams on the account of your wealth (chorus) when daylight breaks the night time clouds pierce signs of heaven so the world can keep forgetting commandment number eleven angels kiss the sky tears shed the purest eyes ripple our lives as they collide the stars shine light of life, do we see do we see? |
| Posted by Matt at 09:14 /writing # |
Infinite Juxtaposition of Destiny
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if i could shed a tear for fallen angels wing tips, write a cheque on their value, cash weekly pink slips. not one drop would touch the earth, and at a drop i'd sacrifice life itself to measure its worth. signify the birth. new born with hardened nerve, clean cut no excrement just hardened words he claims are heaven sent. Free your life. the echo sounded though eternity wouldn't leave me on trial face the jury highly strung and guilty, with sweaty palms quoting the psalms a bargain plea turning up the charm but time is heavy and eternity is a bomb and there's only seconds watch them plummet meteorites from the heavens, reach the summit raining triple sevens it's only at the end we're thankful for the lessons. The pads n pens the sent of melanin it's deep within the homeless bins the next of kins a hug goodbye and first kiss Salty lips and swinging hips sultry utopian make the best of this, you little bitch. Orange pips the daily quips filled with cigarettes nervous shits the daily grind slips still the clock ticks as time bleeds. Proceed, to feed the greed with things we don't need such a pity the more your plenty the bigger of an empty. the possessions you marry lessens the weight you can carry. it's the same old story. Free your life. |
| Posted by Matt at 09:05 /writing # |
Intentions
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My intentions are plain girl, what about you? Your motives are strange can you give me a clue? Does it start with spend the night or what's the situation? Tired and confused between love or masturbation? While she says her heart's bruised, I just picture her naked She wants a foundation, so I say the night's sacred Fascination scanning for the station. As high as a kyte Girl I'm the love of your life, wonderin' if I can even make it through the night She's searching right, despite the light It's too dark inside for any love to find Can't get your legs outta my sight Eyes wondering from end to beginning Just kidding Only respect when your lips are grinning I love the way her hair crosses her face Thinking about moving so whats the rent pay? But there's a monster in her closet who wants to play I call him love I just wanna get some n she wants to hug Girl it's a drug n your addicted The big L's just a sickness, A sport Or a fitness. Shutup or I'll a bring this I call him little Johnny what you expect to talk dirty n not make me horny My mistake didn't realize we had to hug till day break Make what you make I know it seems unfair But your still in your jeans n my under-wears somewhere over there Torn at the seams Girl I'm out don't despair You've still got your teddy bear care So ahh yeah Any chance of paying for the taxi fare? |
| Posted by Matt at 08:58 /writing # |
Balance
Mie hated rush hour. Not only was it a constant struggle to keep from being elbowed or squashed as hundreds of people crowded onto the claustrophobic trains. But, it also reminded her of him.
She gritted her teeth and stepped forward. Despite the fact that the train already appeared to be well over capacity, she knew that at least ten other commuters behind her were as determined as she was to get home. Even if she wanted to step back and take the next train in three minutes time, she would be pushed on board anyway.
A tennis racket handle protruding from a young boyfs bag prodded her in the arm and she squeezed out from between the two businessmen next to her to push it away. Her new orientation meant that she was now inches from an old manfs armpit as he held tightly to the ceiling strap. The start of a humid summer was evident by the symmetrical sweat stain on his shirt, and although she tried to lean back, the trainfs acceleration forward launched her directly into the stale moisture. She grimaced and thought of the irony of the situation she was in. Night and day she craved the intimacy that she had lost, yet every day her privacy was invaded by strangers jammed in next to each other like bowling pins, waiting nervously for the next jolt forward to send them skittling as they all hurtled through the metropolis.
Mie managed to twist around to face the opposite door, and it was in this new position that she felt the brush of a hand against hers. It lasted just a moment, but it registered very clearly with her. She couldnft see the owner of the hand, but it had a subtle, warm roughness to it that seemed most definitely male, probably a young man. She had almost dismissed it as yet another incidental contact, when the train heaved left to round a corner and again she felt his warm touch. This time the press of the crowd meant that the back of her hand was pushed up against his, and she couldnft move it away if she tried.
Or could she? She wondered if she wasnft making contact with him on purpose, perhaps willing the masses to sway in her favour, gaccidentallyh leaning on him against her own volition. Partly it was true - she couldnft really avoid it. But she knew she was lingering, staying to feel his warmth, and when the crowd leaned back again, her hesitation turned a brief touch into a signal, a sign of intimacy yearned for.
For three stations she let herself lean forward, supposedly unable to do anything about this circumstantial union of their hands. Mie closed her eyes and savoured the energy she was deriving from his touch. Images of kindness, warmth and happiness flooded her heart and she began to feel excited at the thrill of new prospects, new love, a new connection.
What was she doing? She didnft know this man! She couldnft even see his face! But his touch seemed tender and the kindness she longed to share with someone, to spoil them, seemed mutual. He wasnft showing any sign of pulling his hand back, of flinching in surprise or mistrust. She slowly raised her fingers and curled them around his thumb. An electric shiver ran down her back as she knew she had crossed the line and stepped past what could be interpreted as gincidental contacth.
She bit her lip as the train pulled up at another station and four suits pushed past them. For a second contact was lost and she wondered if she should wiggle her arm around in front of her and stop whatever it was she was doing. But even more commuters piled on, squeezing their way into gaps between people that werenft there, and she realized she couldnft move if she wanted to. A handbag from an old woman to her left dug into her ribs and she winced.
And then she felt him again. The woman with the handbag squirmed to get comfortable among the jungle of tightly pressed bodies and her hand was forced against his once more. Like shy lovers they tentatively clasped hands and cherished the moment, security among the rush hour chaos.
She dared not look at him now, as although she needed physical contact like this, she was ashamed to admit it and knew it was a substitute for someone who still had her heart. She tried to dream up his personality, extrapolating his soul through the warmth of his hand. But instead she dreamed of him.
The strangerfs hand now guided hers, down, and she felt it brush against cotton. Again he guided her hand and this time she realised what he was doing. She felt his erection bursting through his trousers and realized how sad she had become. She was both disgusted and aroused, revolted that he would abuse the trust she had placed in a stranger but too lonely to let go. She closed her eyes and a tear trickled down her cheek as she curled her fingers into a cup. She placed it over the bulge and pressed against him. More tears streamed from her eyes but she couldnft bring herself to pull away.
It was only when the train stopped again and the crowd pushed forward that she broke free from his warmth, his perversity, his safety, his unknown world. It wasnft her stop but everyone else seemed to be getting off so she allowed herself to drift, like a body surfer in a mosh-pit. She felt him pull at her hand but she was propelled forward and out of the carriage. When her feet landed on the platform she broke into a sprint without stopping to look back.
Mie exited the ticket gate and suddenly realised the enormous significance of where she had alighted. She froze and looked up at the huge memorial watchtower in front of her. It looked menacing in the fading light. Mie felt sure it was mocking her, proclaiming to commemorate soldiers killed in the war, but responsible for the death of the man she loved. She hadnft come here since the accident, hadnft had the courage to face it.
Masafs funeral march had begun here, at the foot of the tower, and had continued the long hike up to where his powdered remains were stored at the top of the hill. But she had skipped the march, she didnft have the strength and wasnft invited anyway. She had gone straight to the cemetery and cried from a distance, well beyond the sight of his mourning family.
That was three weeks ago.
Mie looked around. Almost in answer to her prayer, she spotted a flower shop just by the station exit, and knew there was something she needed to do. She purchased a bunch of blood-red roses and ran with them to the watchtower entrance. The sunlight had all but dissipated and she saw the tourist guide ushering out the last of the tourists. She wouldnft be able to enter via the main gate, but she knew there was another entrance at the side. She knew because that was how the police had said Masa had gotten in at night.
She waited for the usher to lock up before ducking past him and slinking down the side. The tower was old and smelled of urine and moss. She looked up - it was really tall. Halfway up, a large smiling statue of Buddha clung to the side of the tower, almost beckoning her to climb up with smug self-knowledge. Once she had located the recess, she clamped the flowers between her teeth and steadied herself against the stones below. Wedging her hands into the crevice, she pushed and with one leap managed to prop herself up and over the ledge. The gap was small, designed only to let light in but still big enough for a young girl like her to wiggle her way through. She was astonished that the hole had still not been sealed up, three weeks later, but knew that she shouldnft be. She had dealt with the police before - things always happened slowly.
Mie felt her legs tremble as she jumped to the floor and began her way up the stairs. She wondered whether the usher had told the last group of tourists that came through about Masa. That he had a bright future ahead of him and a girlfriend who loved him beyond the grave. That he was troubled by demons that he shared with no-one, demons that eventually drove him to hurl himself from the top of this very tower.
Mie blamed herself. She had lost count of the number of times he had tried to share his concerns with her and she had brushed them off as being silly. She remembered vividly the last such conversation, Masa had begun to dwell on the futility of Japanfs future. He was dismayed at how rude some school boys had been on the train that morning, how they hadnft gotten up to give an old lady their seat, preferring to pretend to be asleep. Mie had agreed with him but hadnft really been listening - she was too wrapped up in the trip they had planned to Disneyland the next weekend.
That trip never happened.
Mie learned of Masafs death from his younger brother, Hide. He was the only one in Masafs family that had known about her. His father had been adamant that the boys work hard to get into university, which meant no extra-curricular activities whatsoever. Masa had not even been allowed to join the baseball club because it cut into his study hours, so there was no way he would have approved of her. She remembered young Hide approaching her at school, his face devoid of any life or emotion. He dumped the news on her, and then he walked away. Mie had felt like the life had been sucked out of her, and had stooped on the spot and howled for hours. She was absent from school all week, convincing her mother that she had influenza.
Mie reached the top of the stairs and saw where Masa must have leapt from. The balcony projected about a metre out from the main building, and a coin-operated telescope that looked like it had not been used in twenty years must have provided the perfect stepping stone. She was determined to pay her tributes properly; this seemed like the most appropriate place.
But the balcony was closed off, the doorway was criss-crossed with barbed-wire. So they had taken steps to prevent it from happening again after all. Mie felt dizzy; suddenly her heart erupted in her chest and she fell to the stone floor, scattering roses into the dank floor. Emotion overcame her and she sobbed until it hurt, her tears merging with petals and dust and stone. If only she had listened, maybe he would still be here.
Fighting through the pain, Mie wrenched herself from the floor. Propping the flowers by the wall she tried to pry open the barbed wire barrier. Her hand slipped and a dark red streak formed in her palm, but it did not deter her. Leveraging her foot above the wire barricade she reached back for the roses and forced her tiny frame between the jagged spurs, ripping her white shirt on the way through.
Mie stepped onto the balcony and looked out at the town below. The wind played with her hair and she felt giddy from being so precariously close to the edge. Still sobbing, she stepped back and thought about what Masa had tried to tell her, how nobody respected anybody any more, how there was no sense of community and no hope for any of them. Everyone was so caught up in progress, continually advancing to what? Surrounding themselves in flashy gadgets, fast cars, boxing each other into tiny apartments and always impatient that there is never enough time, but being too scared to do anything with that time other than keep busy. Dear, dear Masa. Dusk turned to drizzle and clusters of ominous clouds gathered overhead. She looked down at the flowers, darkened by the blood from her cut hand, and thought how fragile they looked. How fragile she felt.
gIfm sorry I didnft listen to you,h she muttered and closed her eyes.
With a resigned sigh Mie released the flowers off the edge, then her will, and finally when she had mustered up the courage to walk forward, her balance. She half expected to be able to continue walking on air, but indeed she fell. Visions of dark clouds mingled and overlapped with images of Masa: the two of them together at Disneyland, laughing as they spun round and round in slow motion on the carousel, completely ignorant of the troubles they faced and the hopelessness of it all while she tumbled. Buddhafs shiny stone head snapped her neck on the way down and Mie died instantly, well before her tired body finally came to rest on the ground below.
| Posted by Matt at 19:02 /writing # |
Last Request
It was a clear fresh day and the sun shone crisply and Geoff, being unemployed, had a lot of time to enjoy it. He was still standing in his dirty underpants, fresh from bed yet fusty and unshaven, a crop of ginger hairs poking through his chin. He had just finished his first cigarette of the day and tossed the butt into a used coffee cup. He then went outside and sat in his small garden and shut his eyes. The sun pressed on his face so that inside his eyelids burned red. His mind wandered toward Bosch's last request and the red and blue sports bag that lay inside the kitchen door. As he dozed a little fly landed on his arm and walked between his hairs in short jerky sets. Quickly he slapped it flat and flicked off the pancaked corpse. "What did it matter?" he thought, "Bosch was dead. He wouldn't ever know whether it happened or not. Surely he couldn't care. He was dead, right?" He looked down at the folded fly's body lying on the step by his foot and a little wave of guilt swept over him, yet only he alone knew that the fly was dead. Then he realized that perhaps it was him alone that had known that Bosch had been alive.
As the rich, red velvet curtain fell softly around the coffin and slid back silently on polished silver rollers, Geoff considered what a violent man Bosch Windsor had been. With the chapel all wrapped in heavy organ chords, and the pews and scant well-wishers half concealed in a mourning that hung low like a fog, it was difficult to remember the anger that had howled in Bosch. Now the body lay silent in the coffin, emptied like a blown egg, and so too, had the violence abated. Geoff pondered whether or not this had in fact, been his soul.
The first part of the task had been gruesome yet achievable. He still recoiled from what he had done but he felt like he was beginning to complete Bosch's will. The second part would be much harder. He picked up the red and blue sports bag and put it in the fridge, then he flopped down on the sofa to make a phone call.
"Maidervale Football Club. How may I help you?"
Geoff sat with his mouth open. Speechless. He put the phone down.
"What am I going to say?" he panicked. He went back outside and had another cigarette before returning to the phone.
"Hello, Maidervale Football Club. How may I help you?"
"Er yes. Um, I wanna, I want to speak to, erm Peter Josling."
"Peter Josling the player sir?"
"Err, that's right."
"Could you tell me what it's regarding?"
"Well I have to ask a favour of him."
"For something of that nature sir, it would be best to put it in writing and send it to the public relations department. Would you like the address?"
Geoff did not have time to enter into correspondence.
During his life a love had blossomed within Bosch, planted incongruously by his father, who in all other respects had never really featured in Bosch's life. His father had not been a bad man, just tough. Tough as his leather palms that had worked for ten hours a day in the wool mill. Sometimes those huge big paws had gently cuffed the back of Bosch's head as slept under the rough hew of stolen blankets. Not a bad man but a man trapped in his life at the factory. The factory kept him alive to work, to work to be alive, until finally he was deaf and his body was wrecked lying discarded at the side of the road like a skateboard, the edges cut, worn and used. The markings of its original design were barely recognizable.
However, this tired body had not stopped him getting to the game religiously every Saturday. Maidervale Hotspur at Brenchly Park. When he saw the flash of blue shirts on green turf a life stirred in him of a similar intensity that his then dead wife had stirred in him a long time before. For the last forty years he had had a season ticket but he had been a life long supporter and the roar of the crowd was like a open hearth to him. It was this love of football he had given to Bosch who he had bounced up and down on his knee two seats up from the touchline. Bosch's 'ABC' had been Maidervale chants but the violence had entirely been his own.
He stood in the foyer of Maidervale Football Club, the stadium towering behind it, hemmed in on all sides by rows of terraced houses. Behind the desk sat a young girl nonchalantly filing her nails.
"Excuse me?"
The girl looked up slightly, raising her eyebrows disdainfully.
"Would it be possible to speak to Peter Josling please?"
"He's in training."
"Well can I speak to him?"
"If you're going to do training."
"Well I'm not going to be training am I?"
"Well I guess you're not going to be speaking to him then are you."
Geoff clenched the bunch of keys in his pocket tightly and swallowed his anger.
"If you could tell me, how, I can speak to him, I would be very happy."
"Public Relations, and you'll have to write."
"There's no other way?"
The girl stopped filing her nails and looked long and hard at Geoff.
"I guess not then."
From his early days Bosch had always liked to punch. What the attraction had been was Bosch's private affair. Maybe it had been the exertion followed by the sound and the gratifying response. Perhaps if he could have, he would have likened it to scoring outside the box in front of the home crowd. The chance, the kick, the ball fizzing down the back of the net and the following roar of the crowd.
Bosch had pretty much punched everyone he had ever met. He had punched Geoff once. It was in a pub on the east side and it stank of stale beer and the walls were as yellowed as the punter's fingers. Geoff had wormed his way to the bar and squeezed in next to a large man with a fat bald head. The man looked at Geoff, extinguished his cigarette by crumpling it in half and grinding it into the tray, then punched him in the face. It had not been a particularly hard punch but it had been enough to recoil him away from the bar and so spurred an indignance in him, that he came back raining punches at the big man. From the big man's head erupted a raspy chuckle and with one final punch he twisted Geoff's head round like a barn owl making his world go dark. When he came to he still had the imprint of a big sovereign ring on his cheek, but for some reason he had been given the seal of approval from Bosch. He never punched Geoff again.
Geoff waited for two hours behind ten foot steel poles which fenced him out of Maidervale Football Club car park. He monitored the comings and goings of the cars and the people. A tall sandy haired man strolled towards a red BMW.
"Peter!" cried Geoff, his arms straining outstretched through the steel poles. "Mr Josling! Just a minute!"
"Fuck off Ginger!"
"Please!"
The door to the BMW slammed shut and with a puff of poison it sped off. Geoff clung to the pole slowly drooping his head until it rested on cold steel.
"Please." he whispered.
He picked up the local paper on the way home and upon returning flopped down onto the sofa to reflect on the disappointments of his day. He read the front page. 'Factory closes.' He quickly moved to the sports back page. 'Maidervale 0 Balmforth Town 5.' He decided to move back to page 4. He skimmed over the page until his eyes rested on a small article at its foot. 'Striker strikes out!' He read on, 'Last night local hero Peter Josling was arrested for brawling with two Asian youths in what appeared to be a racially motivated disturbance. Mr Josling returned to his luxurious abode on the Longfield Estate after spending a night in Maidervale Police station...'
Bosch died from smoking and drinking. His body finally collapsed like logs finally shuffling from wood to embers, which slowly burned fainter and fainter. In the final glow, Geoff visited Bosch in hospital. By then the big man's body had withered, eaten away from the inside, so that it looked like discarded bones pushing out the sides of a bin liner. Bosch beckoned Geoff to him and rasped in his ear, "I ain't never had many friends, so I's asking you to do this for me..." And he whispered Geoff his last request. Geoff nodded. "Alright Bosch, I'll do it," he said. But by this time Bosch had already died.
Geoff stood again outside the car park at Maidervale Football club looking out for a red BMW. When it arrived he scrawled down the registration number with a pen and paper. He looked up to see Peter Josling glowering at him from across the way. Geoff raised his hand meekly but did not say anything. Josling turned and walked to the stadium and swung open the doors like a saloon.
That night Geoff caught the bus up to the Longfield estate. There were only two roads, admittedly long, but Geoff thought, "How many red BMWs can there be?" Eventually he saw Josling's car parked outside a house with a very long leafy drive. He ducked in behind a bush and had another cigarette while he drew his courage together. Then he self-consciously walked up the drive to stand in front of a big wooden door. He knocked twice with a big steel ring that lay in the mouth of a lion. The door opened ajar and a pretty face peered out.
"What do you want? If you're a reporter, you can fuck off!"
"I'm not a reporter, I just need to speak to Peter, just for five minutes."
The door began to close. Geoff stuck his hand into the disappearing crack.
"Please!" he pleaded.
The door bit his hand.
"Argh! Please! It's my friend, he died and..."
The door stopped closing enough for Geoff to pull out his hand, which he held tenderly.
"He died and he asked me to do one last thing for him. Please can I speak to Peter, please!"
The door opened a little wider and the features on the beautiful face softened ever so slightly but the voice didn't.
"Wait here." The door shut.
The door opened fully and Josling stood wild eyed, filling the frame.
"Look mate this better be good, 'cos I'm going through a rough time at the moment and...."
Josling stopped midflow.
"It's you! What the fuck do you want?"
"Just listen please, I just need to ask a favour of you, from a dead man."
"A dead man? Are you taking the piss?"
"No, no, no. He was my friend and he gave me like a last request, which has everything to do with you.... he thought the world of you." Geoff garbled on, whilst rubbing his hand that the door had bitten, looking pathetic.
"Stop!" Josling cut in. "That's enough! Why don't you just shut up and tell what you want me to do." Geoff bowed his head.
"He just wanted you to score a last goal for him."
It was early morning and the air was full of purple mist, swirling across the lawns, hanging in the trees, collecting on leaves. At the far end of the common, two wooden goal posts loomed out of the fog, ghostly. Geoff waited on the penalty spot in front of the goal mouth holding the red and blue sports bag, slowly soaking. Peter Josling emerged through the mist in a long black overcoat, the collars folded up against his face. He carried a pair of football boots. He barely acknowledged Geoff, he merely mumbled, "Lets get this over with then." Josling bent down to change into his boots while Geoff unzipped the red and blue sports bag.
"What the fuck is that?!"
From the bag Geoff had pulled out a large sealed jar of formaldehyde and Bosch's grey, white softened head.
"What do think it is? It's my mate's head isn't it."
"What the fuck? The fuck? You?"
Geoff walked over to the penalty spot and emptied Bosch's head onto it. It sat with a squelch and stared vacantly. Josling stared in disbelief.
"Are you having a fucking laugh?"
"Look that's what he wanted. He wanted you to score a goal with his head."
"You want me to kick his head into the goal?"
"That's what he wanted."
Josling considered. He had scored many headers, yet nothing quite like this.
"Are you out of your fucking mind?" he concluded.
"Just kick the head will you?"
Josling turned, "I ain't kicking no fucking head, for you or your dead mate neither."
Geoff turned too and stared at Bosch's head. It hadn't moved.
"Look Mr Josling. Peter. I didn't want to get mixed up in this either, but that's just the way it happened. You said my mate left me with a burden, but you don't know the half of it. It cost me fortune to get the undertaker to look the other way and after that I had to cut off his head with my own hands. I'll be sick thinking about that for the rest of my life. That head has sat in my fridge since he died, so if you think you're sick of this then I am beyond. So if you could just kick the bloody head into the goal then we can both piss off and forget about it."
Josling began to walk away.
"Please!"
Josling stopped. He turned and looked at Geoff, and then at the head. The wind blew in the trees. With a scream he began to sprint towards the penalty spot. The head disintegrated upon impact due to Geoff's poor pickling technique, spraying flesh and alcohol into the air. It blew back in a fine mist over Josling.
"Arrrgh! You fuck!"
He held his hand to his mouth as little pieces of flesh pattered to the ground several metres in front of him. He took a moment to compose himself and then walked over to Geoff and punched him hard in the face. Geoff landed on his back on the wet grass. His nose began to bleed as Josling towered over him.
"If I ever see your face again I swear I will kill you!"
Josling picked up his shoes and disappeared into the fog.
Geoff propped himself up onto one elbow and dabbed his nose with his hand, red blood on his white skin.
"Thankyou," he called out.
| Posted by Matt at 09:32 /writing # |
Hiding Under the Chaos
So well-meaning
But often the best intentions
Produce the worst results.
Where are you looking?
To the future?
Beyond what is possible now?
Ignoring what it will take to get there?
Look around you
At your peers
Your world
And at yourself
The answers are not complicated
But sometimes we only hear our own truth.
Clamp it down
Before it escapes.
Run to catch the evidence
Before the wind gathers it up
And scatters it far and wide
For adults and children alike
To read and frown upon.
Build yourself a cell
Surround yourself in confusion.
Eventually it will all fall down.
| Posted by Matt at 07:14 /writing # |
The Response Must Be Equal To The Threat
Four year absence. I guess this is ewelcome backf. A lot of water under that bridge now; people lost forever, set free, abandoned, M.I.A. Second entry in the new world; took a few years to acclimatise; took a few years to get this book transported over the vast distances of space. Old friends, what did you think of our times and lives together - do you remember?
Cockroaches for Mars. Now that will be one of sciencefs great blunders. Right up there with the anti-biotic. Or the depleted uranium shell. No, they donft have enough of a radioactive kick to cause harm, but forty or fifty thousand of the fuckers lying around your village is going to be slightly less than utopia. So the bugs will help terra-form, creating conditions for life, pro-create, grow BIG and take over the planet. Leaving us nowhere to run when the moon drifts too far from the Earth, the seas go stagnant and and the whole show goes sideways while the conditions for life here go ePOPf like a Japanese economy and the last thing wefll hear is the laughter of a billion roaches going eYou didnft even need THE Bomb; which we wouldfve survived anyway incidentally!!f all set to a Blur soundtrack resembling the Dr.Who theme that the Europeans have thoughtfully sent on its way to the Red Dust ball in search of........life.
So, here we are with complete trust that eAmericaf (read: the world) will free the world. Which is like saying the world will free itself! Well, itfs worked so far. The list is very long and my time here is short so wefll stick with whatfs current. The Iraq campaign was an ill-conceived botch job and an utter lie from day one. The sad part is we all knew it. And now the Dinosaur is in the tar-pit in combat not with a Mad Dictatorfs World Threatening Army of Murderers and Child Molesters, but instead finds itself trying to swat countless angry wasps whose home was tipped on the way to grabbing a controlling share of all that Black Honey just on the other side of those bramble bushes. Now, you all knew it would happen. You all asked them not to do it. You all know when they do finally come up with a deadly weapons cache it will have been planted there while we were all looking the other way. The point is this. These people were elected in a democratic fashion (well, almost) by your average guys and girls who are just trying to get through the seasonal changes without being eaten alive by bugs and probably donft really know what the policies of the parties they vote for entail anyway. Look at the person next to you. But it doesnft matter; any one that you vote for will lie. Will accept monetary gifts. Will stab you in the back, lie about it, take your monetary gifts and then get completely away with it. The point is Democracy continues to work so well for the nations that have adopted it, letfs give it to everyone else. Once everyone has it something might be done about it. The only danger here is that we end up with too many states in a condition of absolute chaos the task of restoring order becomes impossible without the controlled application of a military dictatorship with international reach, a stranglehold on the most powerful weapons and a leadership that enjoys the backing of the military industrial complex. To ensure efreedomf we must renounce edemocracyf.
The nightwind has a voice. It speaks softly in song. Lie still in tall grass and feel the planet breathe around you. The universe is a thing of life; of creation. We are moved by the planets for we move like them. Circles large and small, we are all part of the same cycle, we propel the same wheel. In and out of darkness, our seasons change and our hearts yearn as the tides turn. We grow what we can. The nightwind has a voice. It speaks loudly in shrieks. Lie in tall grass and feel the planet choke around you. We fill the seas with excrement and alter the seasons with our waste. We move against the planet; re-shaping the surface all the while devising means to leave it. Underground, outer space, into a program. We cheat our mortality, we are breaking the wheel. Our causes swing with fashion, our hearts are hidden. All our growth is inwards. Youfve heard it all before. The saviour of our species must be the destruction of it. The response must be equal to the threat.
eThe New World Order is the culmination of the historical process of integration through militarization. There is no world state but a world-system, without serious ideological competition between elites.f
- Source unknown.
The next roomfs light that too goes out. And now the chill of night.
| Posted by Matt at 17:33 /writing # |
Literary Canvas
Josh's apartment was not really an apartment. It was more like a wide broom closet with a sink. It was minimally furnished with a wobbly grey table on which plates, utensils and breakfast cereal boxes performed a balancing act for an empty audience. An army-issue camping mat was rolled up in one corner, and on the opposite side of the room a well-travelled suitcase lay open, its contents scattered about the room like a collage of clothes. There were no windows.
On the pale stained wall hung a framed print of Picasso's "Girl in Mirror", its contorted figure a sole beacon of colour in the gloomy shadows. Celia closed the door and walked back to the car. It was obvious Josh had not spent last night here; she wondered where he might be.
As Celia opened her car door, she thought she glimpsed Josh's Monaro rounding a nearby corner. Hurriedly she clambered inside her early model Laser and fumbled with the immobiliser key. "Why do keys never go in when you are in a hurry?" she pondered.
She soon realised the futility of chasing Josh - after all, he was a speed demon in his favourite set of wheels. That was one of the points that most attracted Celia to Josh in the first place - his flash car coupled with his love of living fast and loose.
Realising she had lost Josh during her pursuit, she slowed down and came to a stop outside a 7/11 convenience store. She took her keys out of the ignition and sighed deeply. The day was humid and oppressive, the sun bright and relentless overhead. With one hand, she flicked the switch of the air-conditioner to "High", and with the other, reached up to pull the sun visor down.
Out of the corner of her eye, she saw something flutter downward, across her field of vision. She looked down at her left arm and saw that a hastily written note had landed on her wrist. The edges of the note were singed, as if someone had held the paper over a naked flame. With a beating heart she reached down, plucked the note from her skin and read...
| Posted by Matt at 17:30 /writing # |
Two Pieces Of The Same Puzzle
Water cools the Earth, its current moving
Constantly. Lapping at the Fire's tongues
It soothes the feisty flames. As the Fire
Warms the Waves.
A poem weaves its spell in the imaginations of
Artists who imagine dreams that don't yet exist.
Both breathe life into an ocean full of
Possibilities.
The Snow drifts into places only dreamed
About. Indiscernible in the frosted morning
The first tongues of Sunlight, melt its
Frozen Heart. She takes solace in the water
She becomes...
United in Opposition.
Love finds its place in the middle of
Two Pieces of the Same Puzzle.
| Posted by Matt at 00:47 /writing # |
My Little Mad Turns
No-one sees
My Little MadTurns
They are constantly hiding or
Making jokes or playing tricks
On the minds of others, and they
Bow to the higher kingdom of the
Mad Little Turn-Busters
Kings in priestly robes and white coats and
Madlittlewhateversandtheydoitsowell
No-one hears
My Little MadTurns
They are always out to lunch when they
Come Knock-Knock
Knocking at my door and they squirm
Underneath the covers
And I hear them but I rarely let them out
Madlittlebastardswanttoseetheminhell
No-one knows about
My Little MadTurns
They speak a funny language
And they have their own mad little ways
And their grubby little faces get dirty and they throw up when
No-one is looking and sometimes they drink the wrong little
Things and when they do
They throw back the curtains and laugh at their own
madlittledancetheylearntwhentheirownprivatehell
was a safe private hell
and can you see them here?
| Posted by Matt at 00:44 /writing # |
The Postman
The good thing about being a postman is a nice cup of tea. If you've got a little bit of charm as possessed by my good self here, you can worm your way into some lady's house for a sit down and a brew, which it has to be said, breaks the round up and gives a breather to the old feet. But it's all about polarity though innit? Without me legs and feet being all sore an' that, I wouldn't half as much appreciate that cuppa.
So yeah, I go in for a cuppa with the ladies. I can see where you's goin' already. You think it's all about humping bored 'ousewives an' all that. You know like it's "Hello Postie, would you care to stick some letters through my mailbox?" all posh like. But it ain't like that, it's mostly, you know, old dears like. They just wanna chat like. Them's on their own, most of 'em having lost their fellas years ago. So a little chat goes down well with them, just like the Earl Grey goes down a treat with me, sitting in the front room in an armchair with the best china in me hand.
You see, tea is an institution. When you roll up at someone's 'ouse, and without saying nothing, they pull out a brew just how you like it; milk and two, milk no sugar, just black, half a sugar and a little bit muddy if you're fussy. It's like you really know someone if you know 'ow they like their tea. Me, I like it with just milk these days. I used to have a sweet tooth, so many sugars you could stand the spoon up in it, but my dentist told me there was more holes in me teeth than there was potholes in the road. He said it's hot drinks with sugar, eat away your teeth in the blink of an eye they will. So I knocked it on the head. Just milk these days, took a bit of getting used to mind, but now I really like it. I can taste the tea better. Well I can taste the tea full stop. Bit of a revelation it was at the time, you know like there's tea in tea and not just milk and sugar.
I also like bein' up an' about on the streets before everyone else. Everything's all quiet and the sky's all purple, you can feel the day coming but you're already up like. It feels like cheating, I get a kind of cheeky feeling. I like it. An' also at that time, with the streets all empty, the birds are about. It's their time of day it is. They're smart them birds. They know when the best time a day is, chirpin' about while we're all in bed. Chirpin' and shittin'. They're amazing birds are. I remember when I was little and wondering, where exactly does a bird shit from? You know, I'd stare and try and look for an arse like, but I never saw nothing. Did they shit from between their legs or was it further up? It was only after years of careful watching that one day I spotted it. Well to tell the truth I never exactly saw its arse like, bein' covered in feathers an' all, and to really tell the truth, I was so wrapped up in me biological studies that it nearly shit on me head!
But I saw it emerge from those feathers halfway between the legs and the tail and the white shit landed next to me foot with one of those green bits in. It looked like muscles I reckoned, like funny French food. I felt happy that day I did, knowing where a bird shits from, knowing where the arse of a bird is.
Some streets however, you won't get no tea though. Others it's like every house has a cup-a-tea in it, even if I don't 'ave no letters. Pilkington Lane is one of them streets, so I always break me round up halfway on Pilkington for a sit down and a cuppa.
And so it was the other Thursday. It was raining, well it weren't raining proper, it was just like the water had been blown through a tea bag. The air full of like drops. It's what me Grandad, bless his soul, called wetting rain. It don't look wet, but after thirty minutes it's like you been sat in a bucket of water.
So that's 'ow it was when I rolled up No.6 Pilkington Lane an' I stood there on the mat as to give the doorbell a ring. Mrs Jones appears like "Morning Postie" she says. " 'ello Mrs Jones" I say, " See them birds've been at your milk again." " Little devils! " she says.
Cos you see Mrs Jones has her milk delivered by the milkman like, probably the only bloke up before me. So every morning she has a pair of pints sitting on the doorstep with them shiny foil tops. Now them tops for a bird is like a red rag to a bull innit, they just can't help themselves, so they also hop down onto the old bottle and peck their way through the foil and 'ave a little sip of the cream floating on the top. An' we always thought it was the cat that got the cream eh? So I says to her "Why don't you put a yoghurt pot over the top or something?" and she says " I haven't got the heart." I guess that's why she always give me a cuppa, just can't resist giving the early birds a little drink. So I had a brew, dropped off her post, talked about the weather, dried off a bit, and got out for another soaking.
After posting a few more letters next on the tea list was No.21 Mrs Green. And when I rolled up at her house it was shocking it was, there was mess everywhere like. So before going in I says to her " What's been at your rubbish, looks like a fox or something?" "No," she says, "it's those blasted crows, clever little buggers they are. You won't see them all week until I put the rubbish out, and then they swoop in like a plague of locusts." Like flies on shit I was thinking. I like Mrs Green's house though, it's real traditional like, little pieces of England all over the place, right down to them funny white doilies on the back of the chair. The mantel piece is packed full of photos. You know them old ones where everyone looks serious and the edges are all fuzzy. One of them's a picture of her husband like, he was a little piece of England that's still left in France somewhere. They gave him a cross like but they never found him. It would've probably been like trying to remake a cow from meat in the Butchers. She never married again, but she does 'ave nice tea, she has that Lady Jane Grey stuff which has what you might call, a nice aroma.
When I left No.21 it was still raining so I pulled me hood up, not that it really did much good. No.54 is Mrs Johnson's house. She's nice enough but she is, how can I put it, a bit prim. I've never been in her house 'cos it's got a porch so we always 'ave a natter with me in the porch and her leaning on the door frame. An' so she's leaning there, and tells me that the funniest thing's been going on. Her Gerald's got a way with the birds she says. I's thinking a few years ago I was the same mate, down the town on a Saturday night with me blue suede shoes! But as it turns out she reckons that he can talk to them! "Get out! No way!" I says.
Well it happened that a few nights back he was outside and he was practising making owl noises, ta-wit-ta-wooing with his hands like. Then she said when he stopped an owl answered back! So he started again, and then the owl answered again, like a conversation! She said it had been going on for more than a week. Well I didn't know what to say really. I couldn't dispute it like. If that's what she said happened, it happened. Who am I to say? It did strike me a bit odd though being able to talk to birds an' that. So I paid my dues and got on me way.
The final tea stop on Pilkington is a bit of a funny one. Like I said it ain't all about 'ousewives 'cos two doors up from Mrs Johnson's is like Mr Peters at No. 58. He's a nice bloke but he's a bit soft like. His Mrs goes to work at an office in town, one of them power women, I ain't ever met her though. Mr Peters always wears them big woolly jumpers, a bit earthy like, an' he stays at home. He's a painter see, he does like, views and that. Thems alright, but they're a bit funky. I mean I like a picture of a tree to look like a tree, but his don't. They look like green blobs on sticks. Then I don't know nothing about art like so I just say, "That's real good Mr Peters."
Anyway as it turned out a funny thing's been happening to him an all. The other night he was out tending his tomatos or something and he says he hears this owl call. He said he thought it was a bit funny 'cos it went on a bit longer than they usually do like. So anyway he says to me it made him remember how at school he used to be able to make owl noises with his hands, so right there an' then, after twenty years, he gave it a go, and to his surprise he could still do it! But to top it all as he was staring down at his hands, hardly being able to believe that they was the same ones as what he had when he was a kid, the owl answered back! Ta-wit-ta-woo like! So then he said he got right into it like and starts having a conversation like, with the other owl! Well at that point I'd heard enough. It didn't take no Sherlock Holmes to work out what was going on there. I didn't have the heart to say, so I made my excuses and left.
Outside it was still raining but I didn't see it 'cos I had a ray of sunshine in my head. I could just see it, Mr Peters in his woolly jumper Ta-wit-ta-wooing for the first time in 20 years, answering Gerald, Mrs Johnson's other half, two doors up, Both of them outside, revelling in the marvels of nature like!
It set me thinking though, it might be difficult to see the arse of bird, but it's clear as day where the arse of humanity is. Still, I put me best foot forward so as to get home, nice and dry, and out the rain.
| Posted by Matt at 21:06 /writing # |
Walking
|
scared to sleep at night, afraid to close my eyes, the darkness sneaks with
surprise, growing tired feelings are morbid. i recognize the depth of the darkness, like an artist's portrait, it's all since you departed, that the mind games started.
it's I verses I, like H and J parted, and i'm the test subject, but my angel left, so i'm left with a pocket full of regret. yet, i still cant sleep, popping pills to forget, losing my self-respect, I neglect to recognize logic, as time is covered with lies. i despise it so i hide in the basement, contemplate a replacement, but how can i love when i love this self-hatred. never thought i would make it, escape the situation, but i found a way to leave the day's devastation, ease the strain and controlling the pain i found it in a woman, and i pray i'm not living in vein. (chorus) sometimes i reflect on pains in mind, mental imagery attacks me in my sleep. emotions seem beyond me and they're always too deep, it's like i have to siphon between cast away or keep. carelessly I let go of memories, watch them wash away forgetting what she meant to me, searching for some clarity at the bottom of the cemetery reciting inscriptions R.I.P 'Luke Leslie Brown'. repenting the old ways of yours truly, sinning now, looking around for brighter days with her away, truly are obscene, no bright ideals i just wanna escape the dream. I hate the way i feel, can i ever forget what i've seen as the nightmares still sting, lie to myself thinking i've moved on but when no-one's around i'm still the only son. lost in self-consciousness, body-bagging my losses as a way to justify my accomplishments, love is an establishment seems i forget what it meant feeling soulless i noticed this, by the echo in my chest, need to be spoon fed the answers as questions grow like cancers, there's always one too many, now too happy to be buried as amongst the dirt i found a cherry, in case you have to ask, yes i'm very happy. Thank you very much, but i'm still hesitant to hold love in my clutch, for what it may represent I guess it's all too much. see for some love is hollow, and for others it's borrowed. but for me, I had to let go, but that's the way the current goes, so i get up and get go wading in the shallows. should have learnt to swim for I'm drowning in the undertow (you know?) (chorus) sometimes i reflect on pains in mind, mental imagery attacks me in my sleep. emotions seem beyond me and they're always too deep, it's like i have to siphon between cast away or keep. i wear a mask to cover the scars of the past, as band-aids wear thin, maybe if i was a groupie i'd get in. but it's hard to stop from sinking within. wouldn't want to commit to any woman, that would be a sin. i guess i'm just too confusing to comprehend, and my logic's bent, it's deluding so ad-hear to lend an hand out of this Intrusion, it's a simple solution you do the math. growing weary and tired i find love is best expressed in silence, yearn to sleep, but i can see through my eye-lids, so i keep my day-mares and ignore the many stares, slowly letting go of my cares, though each ones replaced with a new fear, time takes its toll and i wonder how long I'll last here. it's give or take in a world of hate, you make what you make many words spoken too late, it makes me sick, that life with you i have to grip, I started to climb but then i slipped, started to run but then i tripped, started to swing but then i missed, started a hug and then a kiss, never ending this for now i'm second best, mr dismissed, you feeling this? we're generation X, the information age as life played in stages, we re-write the pages of the ages, read in chapters that capture charachiture that influence our character. so many questions and not enough answers, how many more lessons must we forget, to tally our regrets, that's another subject forgive but never forget, by the way have we met? sometimes my emotions crack, and i lose track of time, delving too deep in my mind, trying to find solutions to problems that haven't even arised, yet, nevertheless i'm too ignorant to adapt to my environment, so i hide in the dark silence and await the bright white light. |
| Posted by Matt at 09:09 /writing # |
Lucky Stars
|
count your lucky stars and bottle them in jars before they're taken away from
you, count the twinkles before they have their way with you, or make you. we've
all got a sparkle sometimes, it's just dimmed grey and blue.
bank your worries under your mattress and try to discern. write your morals on your money and see if it returns. fool your words into tomorrow's search, stutter an excuse for a way out, tongue-tied aerobics for your soul, when your hearts full of doubt. you's your nous, sift through the dreamer's dreams, choose one and live it in reality, dreamers always chase but never really get it. broken fragments that mirror your life, line your flattered room stepping stones, only god knows how many armies you've been through. write your name in the sand and let the emotional ocean consume you. worship from hills and count the drills when your skies no longer blue you know the pain has shaped you then you'll be filled, it's hard to still be the flame even harder to create a spark, tears always burn but determine to make your mark. tearing down boundaries that sting still unable to depart, though you're covered in sin you're dressed for the part. unconscious tools to be re-used any time between stop and start. how many ways to kill a man? the six foot deep author verifies hell gratify the part. how many are just, when it's a figure of speech it's just a figure of deceipt, in the letter of beseech. often easy to be schooled but a lot harder to teach, easy to yell but a lot harder to preach. some wounds heal over, others leave crooked scars, you're trying to make the words out but it's hard to read the dusty cue cards. bible pages are thin for a reason, you can fit more in, you get the score? live and let love live, act right and you might get an encore, just don't get greedy and prolong the applause. gather in a space with every race you might just be appalled to show your face, so to feel safe keep your door ajar, pull the covers over your head, but the monsters are too busy raiding the cookie jar than hiding under your bed. the mood is set, it's a candle lit test and i'm best dressed it's hard to keep calm, so when she decides to adjust her lip balm, i can peep the smudged answers written inside my sweaty palm. for all i can see there's little here for me and what's here i cant applaud. it was a grave mistake to love your face which now taunts me more, why are you still here when i gave our love to the lord? as floorboards shake with quick relate, claw the clouds with haste in your escape for heaven's sake. the only talk you make is with the chatter of your teeth, as new topics bring hesitation I'm avoiding conversation through deep apocalyptic stare, when the music stops i'm always the one thats left without a chair. but i was never one for crowds so i couldn't really care, as empty cupboards fold like open arms to despair. counting your losses the balance seems unfair, so join the regiments and try to perceive how to return next year's eve with loving sentiments. |
| Posted by Matt at 09:09 /writing # |
Fine Lines
|
i love the way she defines the fine line between a floating relationship
with the sign of a sinking friendship in a time and place where neither
could exist, not knowing how beautiful this is, she ignores the situation
without realizing the ramifications spitting spite in forked tongue
conversations.
maybe i'm mistaken for giving without taking, heart breaking, love making, soul shaking, it's all the same in any existing relationship, when love defines your existence, hard to stay persistent and not miss em n crawl back to that space of resistance, pick up missions where no-one listens n just gives sympathetic expressions, so you count your lessons and old love letters, create other memories to forget her hoping jealousy will hurt her, but this space feels murder, counting heart murmurs doesn't make it better, just takes the pain further you're a drama farmer, love smotherer, but no-one can grow in the shade, that was your only mistake, when you were her sun rays. how much time did you waste analyzing the look on her face, defining the lines you retraced over and over, realize her sunshine is fake it's always cut n paste, when you fit in that thin line between love n hate. getting legless to forget this opposite sex friendship it's senseless. under appreciated with a hundred insecurities loved n now hated this ain't new to me as with each day away you slowly murder me, but i'm Mr righteous, we create a spark n set fire to us, it's disasterous say i'm to blame, but the glove don't fit, the truth hurts when it hits, after one too many a difference n personality clashes now i'm drowning in the ashes. we're more than friends less than lovers, we sleep together but don't 'sleep' under the covers, whatever, we're both too stubborn to call each a meet face to face, cos then we could reside in a space other than hate, "hi how you doin?" just seems out of place when this void is over-stayed. n i'm caught in future desires and memories on the replay. you say "oh i know you luke" you cant comprehend that Understanding starts with U, so justify your actions by saying "i was just like you", well what happened the girl i held true, n called my boo, actually what the hell happened to the woman i knew, cos all i see is a little girl playing 'peek a boo'. |
| Posted by Matt at 09:09 /writing # |
Teaching Chinese Kids to be Creative
The Chinese have a traditional teaching method that has developed over the last 5,000 years. Ba zhe shou jiao - that is, 'teaching by holding their hands'.
The idea behind this method of teaching is that the child will happily continue to come back for more by carefully molding and shaping absolutely everything they do throughout their childhood and adolescence.
As a result of this careful molding and shaping however, the child does not learn how to be creative, the child does not learn how to think independently or creatively for themselves. To be totally honest, the child actually doesn't learn how to do ANYTHING!

Teaching Chinese Kids to be Creative
From the simplest of daily tasks such as tying your shoelaces and brushing your teeth, to more complex tasks such as playing the guitar or eating dinner in a Chinese Restaurant (one of the most complex routines you can experience!), a Chinese adult relies on straight up rules and routines. Without these rules and routines they are completely incapable of functioning on their own, in the same way a new born baby is incapable of functioning on their own, even for the most basic of basic, simple tasks.

Once upon a time there was a very beautiful
but very lonely young girl
1 + 1 only equals 2 if the book they read it from or the teacher they learnt it from says it equals 2, not because they counted it for themselves, by themselves, on their own fingers, and came to realize on their own that it actually DOES equal 2! (How about that?)
In fact this ancient Chinese learning method goes a long way towards explaining how Chairman Mao managed to obtain such mind-boggling control over the population as well. He wasn't stupid, he saw what was going on and he capitalized on it, he created his own Clone Army, but that's another story...

One day the beautiful young girl
met a handsome young boy...
I tell all the teenagers with overbearing parents to go home and tell their mothers to 'go to hell and leave me alone!' and to slam their bedroom doors in Mama's face if she is being a pain in the arse. I've witnessed first hand the problems these traditional Chinese Mamas can cause, the guiding hand and the watching eye of mother simply won't get off their child's case sometimes. After all, telling your mother where to go is all part of the natural rebelling process that we all go through and take for granted in our western adolescence. But it's a stage that Chinese kids simply do not go through, and they remain children with no independence or creativity their whole lives as a result.

The boy and girl married in a huge church
and lived happily ever after!
In fact I hardly teach anyone any actual proper English, but there are enough boring middle-aged middle-class Western English teachers around to take care of that for me, I'm on a much more important mission in China! I'm giving the youth a chance to have a taste of freedom!
And I'm telling you this as a fact, they've never felt more alive in their entire lives! And it gives me this huge feeling of satisfaction to know that I have changed the monotonous boring repressive routine of all of these innocent Chinese kids who are having their childhoods taken away from them, because that's the kind of stuff that sticks in a child's brain and can go a long way towards improving their adult lives. They come back to my next class all excited with drawings and stories and tell me their latest tales of evil rebelling against their parents! Stories such as Mama called me for dinner and I waited a whole two minutes before coming out of my room!!! (It's not much, but it's a start!)

The final result: Three Creative Chinese Kids! They didn't copy it from a book, the teacher didn't guide their hand for them, they completely drew it themselves from their own thoughts and ideas! And these kids can draw too!! Just you try and get the smile off their faces!
The youthful spirit is growing strong in the youth of China today, and this is a crucial time for them, a crucial time for the youth of China to hold onto their strong developing youth culture before their robot parents and the controlling government crushes it out of them all over again. Otherwise the development of China is going to simply collapse in one giant heap.
Because if China collapses, the world is going to know about it big time!
| Posted by Matt at 20:28 /writing # |
